Saturday, June 29, 2013

Birthday Spanking

Today is my birthday and Clyde has been so good to me. I received one of the best spankings I've had yet.

"Come here birthday girl" he says patting his knee.
I walk over and lay across his lap on the bed. He hands me a pillow for my head. I settle in and wait while he pulls my panty down.
"One, smack, two, smack, three..... He counts them out until he reaches my age. When he's done he reaches between my legs and feels how wet I am. He continues to spank and fondle until I'm just a puddle of need in his lap. What he does next really surprised me.

I feel something cold touch my pussy. It begins to vibrate. I moan as he pushes it inside me. He works the vibe while he spanks me and I grind my hips. It was an intense orgasm that left me with a smile on my face. When it was over I turned to him and noticed he was hard as a rock. I start to undo his pants to take care of him.

"Nope." He says "That one was just for you." So I snuggle up on his chest and fall asleep.

It has been a pretty good birthday. We just got back from dinner with my family to celebrate. We had a great time with lots of laughs. Soon we will meet up with some friends at our favorite bar for drinks.

I wish everyday could be my birthday!

On another note we leave Monday for a week long vacation at the beach. I will try to catch up with y'all when I can.

Hope your weekend is as good as mine ;)

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

DD. Its not for everyone

By now you know that Clyde and I do not practice DD. We use spanking for erotic purposes only. I have mentioned before that I would like to add the discipline dynamic to our relationship. Clyde didn't really take to it but never said no to it either. I had been trying to push him in that direction.

Well the other day that came to a head. I was feeling a little upset that he hadn't taken any steps toward DD. We talked about it and he flat out told me that this was not something he could do. He would not punish me. He would not set rules for me. He didn't feel I deserved that and it just wasn't in him.

Of course I felt let down. I withdrew. We didn't talk to each other for several hours. I had to let that sink in. It was uncomfortable to say the least.

At the end of the day when we were alone I asked if we could talk about it. And boy am I glad we did. He made me realize that there is nothing he would want to change about me. He loves me for me. He doesn't want to discipline me for any behavior. He just wants me to be me.

I love him for that.

We will continue our journey with ttwd and do it our way.

Friday, June 21, 2013

The story of us..... in a nut shell

I was 12 years old the first time I saw Clyde. I was at a football game with a friend. Just as the first half ended she pointed to a player on the field and said he was her new boyfriend. I watched as Clyde took off his helmet and grabbed a drink. I watched him as he talked to people. I watched him when he played. I watched him the rest of the game. I was being drawn to him and I have belonged to him since that day.


As time went on I got to know Clyde and we became friends. He was funny and cute and a total bad boy. They broke up after a couple of weeks but I continued to see him. He would walk me to my classes and we talked on the phone for hours everyday.  He was always around. I think I loved him even then.


When I was 15 he told me he was going to marry me and that we were going to have twins one day.  I absolutely wanted this to be true. I knew what we had was real even if no one else believed in us.

Did I mention he was a bad boy? Yeah real bad. No one wanted us to be together. My parents pushed and pushed and did everything they could to keep us apart. They just didn't see what I saw in him.

When I was 16 he gave me a promise ring. We were a messy, loud and passionate couple. We fought like crazy because we were a couple of kids who had very real feelings and I sure didn't know how to handle them.

We broke up for 6months my senior year of high school. I can't even remember the reason now but I was miserable. We both dated other people but no one made me feel like Clyde does. He was all I could think about.

When we got back together we agreed never again. We got married after I graduated and right away I got pregnant with twins. That was a tough year. Probably the most challenging year we have ever had. We went on to have another daughter 4 years later.

Now its been almost 20 years since the first time I laid eyes on him. I love him more and more each day. He has become the most wonderful man and father to our girls. I'm grateful for everyday I have with him and never want to be without him.

I just want to be the only girl he loves all his life.

Monday, June 17, 2013

Baby, I got this feelin...

I'm getting that feeling. You know the "need to be spanked" feeling. The kids are out for summer and its been tricky finding the appropriate time. I'm not sure exactly how long its been, lemme think....

Oh the last time I got a spanking? That was a good one.

About 4 days ago, it was late at night, the kids were in bed. We walked outside to get something out of the car. While standing there talking he takes my hand pulls me around to the other side of the car. He takes both my hands and places them up high on the roof of the car and tells me not to move them. Then he reaches around and unbuttons my shorts and slides the down. I'm in total shock saying "Really? Here?" "Seriously?" " Oh your not going to...."

Smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack

"What were you saying?" He asks.

Just as I open my mouth to reply...

Smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack, smack

This went on for several minutes. I think we were both pretty turned on at that point and I heard the tell tale sound of his zipper. I kept in position and didn't turn. He grabbed my hips and drags me back so I'm bent in half with my hands still on the car. I feel the head of his cock rubbing against my opening spreading my slickness and then slams into me. I cry out. I watch as cars continue to drive down the busy road next to our house while he pounds into me from behind. Wondering if they might be able to catch a glimpse of us before their headlights pass and we fade back into the darkness.

It was such a rush. Now before you go thinking I could have ended up in jail for indecency or something like that I'll have you know that we live in the country and have very few neighbors with lots of space between houses. I think we were pretty well hidden but I guess there's always that chance of a passing car seeing a little to much.

Ah yes that was the last time I got spanked. Memorable as it was, its been too long. I'm getting all needy and Spinny. I think the feeling has more to do with not knowing when I will be able to get my fix again.


*Sigh*
Its going to be a long summer.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

The kink list

I have been struggling with something for a while...... I have some kinks I want to try out and I don't know how to approach Clyde about this. Some would say "Come right out and say it" but I could never find the courage.  So on a whim I wrote it down, it was just a short list and I kept it to myself.


To tell this story I have to back up a bit to Saturday. The kids were gone to my parents house for the night and I was promised a nice long spanking with some good sex to follow. (Hey I had earned it. I gave him what he wanted)

Things don't always go as planned though. We went to the lake that afternoon with some friends and well if your from Texas, you know that involves temps close to 100° and lots of beer. Needless to say Clyde was in no condition by the time we got back home to give me what I wanted. I was not a happy girl and I went to bed that night completely frustrated.

I woke up Sunday morning in a terrible mood. Clyde knew he had let me down so he got up before me and brought me breakfast in bed. (OK its a good start. What else do you have in your magic bag of tricks?) He knew what I needed and boy did he deliver. We spent the next several hours tangled up in the sheets. By the time we were done I was good and sore, my ass was bright red and I was thoroughly fucked. We ended with three orgasms each.

During that hot tumble in the sheets, Clyde did something he's never done before. He put his hands around my neck while he was pounding into me. He didn't squeeze, just held on so I felt a little pressure. It was an amazing feeling of being owned by him. I came instantly. It was intense and totally unexpected.

Later in the day...... We are at a family members house with people all around but we find ourselves in a quiet corner having a quiet conversation...


"Well you just keep crossing things off my list one by one."

He smiles. "What list?"

"My kink list. You know, things I want to try."

He just laughs. He know exactly what I'm talking about.

"You did come pretty quick once I put my hands on you."

I just smile and nod

"So do you want to see it?"

"You actually have a list?" His eyebrows are raised and he looks surprised. "Oh this I gotta see. Yeah I want to see it."

I pull out my phone and burried deep in a password protected file is my kink list. Kind of like a sexual bucket list if you will.

He read it, then smiled and gave me that look. Handed my phone back to me and rejoined the conversation going on around us.

We have talked about it some more since then and he must have really liked my list. He's already thinking of ways to cross some of them off!

I told him if we are going to start crossing them off then I have more to add to it.

So this list I put together a few months ago might be one of the best things I have ever done for myself. ;)


Saturday, June 8, 2013

Lets talk spanking implements

Shall we?

Clyde and I are not very experienced with many different implements. We have a small arsenal of tools that have their purposes. Of course there are always those random moments he thinks I need a spanking and he will pick up ordinary objects and use them in an extraordinary way.

For starters, theres his hand. This is my favorite. It feels so erotic to be put across his knee, held down and spanked. I love the feel of skin on skin. It turns me on more than any thing else.  MMMMMMMMM.... Just thinking about effects me. But because he feels the burn too this does not last as long as I would like :(

 We have a leather paddle that I like. I ordered it on the internet from extremerestraints.com. (if you haven't checked out their site I highly recommend it. Lots of good stuff for us kinky folks.)  When used correctly it leaves a "slut" impression on my bottom and I like to think of myself as his slut ;) It's not very big but oh so effective.

We also have a suede flogger that we use more for play. I love it when he uses the flogger on my back while he towers above me and I give him a nice slow blowjob. We use this implement for play because it very soft and not painful at all just a little stingy if swung hard enough.

Then theres the wand. (See my post about quiet spanking implements for a pic of this) We only use this when the kids are home and we have to be discreet. This packs quite the wallop and leaves marks.

Sometimes we use the belt. I am not fond of the belt. The belt is only used for "punishment. " I say it like that because well I don't feel that its ever severe enough to be considered punishment. I have a high pain tolerence and he will give me 10 licks with the belt at most. I guess I should be pretty happy about that. I mean it is like laying strips of fire across my ass.

Also theres those moments when things progress quickly and he will pick up whatever is handy to light my world.

Once he used a remote control. It was just ok for me, a little stingy and not very effective.  That was totally unexpected and pretty funny. I will never look at a remote the same way.

Another time he used a pig whip. (Long story as to where that came from.) The whip hurt like the dickens.  After two swings I came up ready to fight.  Mysteriously it disappeared shortly afterward. Muah ha ha

So there you have it. That's our short list.

I would love to expand our tool kit and with time I'm sure we will. I'm really interested in wooden implements and can't go to the store without sinister thoughts about what objects I can use for spanking.

What are your favorite implements that maybe I haven't tried yet?






Thursday, June 6, 2013

I want...

So I'm just going to start writing and hope this flows and makes sense.

Lately I have been feeling a little neglected. (Not sure if this is the right word to describe how I feel but we'll go with it for now.) Don't get me wrong. Clyde treats me well. He takes good care of my needs, but I don't feel like I'm treated with the same attention I give him. I submit to him and treat him like the king that he is. I do everything for him. I usually take great pleasure in our dynamic.

But if he's the king, shouldn't I be the queen?


I give him everything I have. I just want to feel as important to him as he is to me.


I want to be put back on that pedestal that he put me on years ago. Somewhere along the way it crumbled. I don't always like the way he makes me feel. Its not intentional. I know he loves me unconditionally. Proven by all the crazy things that have come out of my mouth over the last few months and he has made changes and adjustments to give me what I want.

I can't help it. I just want more from him. I want to feel like he needs me. I want to feel like he couldn't live without me. I want to feel cherished.

He tells me he loves me all the time and we have been together nearly 20 years.

Is it crazy that I'm unsure of the way he feels about me?

Maybe it is. I know he loves me but I need more information about how he feels with all the changes I've been going through. I need some reassurance that he still feels the same for me. That I haven't scared him away. Sometimes I feel like I'm changing and growing so much that I need him to ground me to make sure I don't float away.

 He is a man of few words. I talk, he listens. I wear my heart on my sleeve and he keeps is burried  in his chest.



I'm getting hung up on words he doesn't say and I'm not paying attention to his actions.

Actions speak louder than words right?

But sometimes there are words that a girl needs to hear....

I never used to be this needy. It never bothered me before but since starting ttwd I need him more than ever.

My poor hubby, it must be difficult trying to keep up with me and my ever changing emotions.

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Caught wet handed

So no punishment for Bonnie yet.
 
I must admit I have been even more naughty since my last post. Probably most embarrassing is that Clyde caught me masturbating.
 
 
 
 
Its Saturday afternoon and the house is quiet. Kids are playing outside in the yard. Clyde is in the garage working on his motorcycle.... I'm bored. Seems like a perfect time to sneak in the bedroom and play with Roger. (my rabbit vibe... Roger Rabbit.) So I lay on the bed, grab my phone and go to my favorite porn site. I found a clip I thought would work for me and got started. I had only been at it about 3 mins. It was just getting good.
 
Then, I hear the doorknob jiggle.
 
Shit, Clyde....
 
I quickly took the vibe out and hid it under the pillow. Hit the lock button on my phone so the screen shut off. I sat straight up and ran a hand through my hair. About that time Clyde got that door open and was looking right at me. I put on my best poker face but he saw right through me.
 
"What are you doing?"
 
Me smiling shyly... "Oh nothing."
 
He's looking around trying to decide what I had been up to...
 
As luck would have it, my phone decided to start playing the video I was watching and the woman let out a loud moan.
 
Clyde narrows his eyes at me and rips the blanket back.
 
I'm naked from the waist down.
 
He give a little laugh and says, "Well don't let me stop you."
He reaches under the pillow and puts Roger in my hand and urges it south.
And he dives right in tongue first. He licked my clit  while I moved the vibe and it was a very intense orgasm.
 
Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I didn't know how he was going to react but it couldn't have gone better.
 
This got me to thinking... Do I masturbate more than the average 30 year old?
I do get myself off more often than I want to admit. I'll just say that AA batteries are like gold in my house. ;)
 
If you're brave enough I would like to know...How often do you service yourself?
 
 
Bonnie

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