I feel like it's been a while since we talked. All right I know I have been neglecting this blog as well as catching up on what's going on in everyone else's lives but I'm going to put in a stong effort to be around more. You know how it is, life just gets in the way. Plus, I think I lost my inspiration for a bit.
Things have been going well here lately. Clyde and i are growing more in love each day. I know how cheesy that sounds but it's true. Having something almost tear us apart has brought us closer in the end. There were definite idiosyncrasies that led to the breakdown. We are learning about each other and how to deal in a whole new way. We've not always been great at communiting and seeing things from the others perspective but again, it's something we are working on.
Having taken my submission off the table made both Clyde and I realize how much a part of us ttwd had become. Everything changed. And we want it back.
We started again on a trial basis to see where it goes. So far things have been great. Clyde is stepping into his role again quite nicely and even more consistent than ever before. I on the other hand have been struggling. I'm having such a hard time getting back into that mindset. I think for me, the hardest part is that I just don't trust him completely so I'm afraid to give myself over to him again. I feel the need to protect my heart.
For his part he has been very patent with me and listened and he's even learning to take my unspoken ques. He's been very creative in finding ways around the roadblocks that I am putting up. For instance, maintenance has never really been a part of ttwd, now I receive it on a weekly basis. There are other rituals he has instated to keep me feeling and thinking like a submissive again.
Its been a tough time for both of us but we know that we both want/need ttwd. It has forged a bond and given us a sense of belonging that has always been the but now it's even stronger than ever.
So to sum up what I feel I've rambling about but not sure I'm explaining myself properly..... we are doing good and back to having some naughty fun again.
Happy spanking my friends.