Diane had requested that I write about how things are going within our dynamic. Thank you Diane.
Well thats kind of a loaded topic at the moment. Some of you may remember back in January when clyde presented me with a contract to be my Master. I agreed to give it a 3 month trial period and then reevaluate. We're nearing the end of our agreement and I assume a very serious discussion is in our near future.
Where are we?
Well things are good. We play a lot. The drive by has become a regular occurrence. We've added some new toys to our box. One of them is the much anticipated butt plug. (Love it) He's become very creative with his seductive games. Bottom line, we are having fun and really good sex.
But of course like every relationship we have bad days. There's not much consistency and it leaves me wondering what is really important to him. (Not a good place to be) I have become a little more defiant than usual. He's not sure how to handle that just yet. (He doesn't like punishment but he likes for me to obey.)
I'm wondering if I'm cut out to be a slave. Maybe that's not for me. I am realizing that I have power in this relationship. A lot. And I like it. I don't want to give that up. Not completely.
I know that I am submissive. I love submitting to my husband. Nothing turns me on more than seeing him in control. He just does it for me. But at the same time, I don't want to push him to be someone he's not. I'm trying my best to let him lead and find HIS way with this.
At this point I'm really happy with the way things are going. He still spanks me. We still have hot and kinky sex. But most of all, we have that reconnection back.
So that's where we are. Still chugging along raising a family, attending school functions, and playing kinky games behind closed doors.