It's late and as Clyde sleeps next to me, I'm wide awake because I've just had some of the best sex of my life! Seriously, my legs are still shaking as I come down from this high. It's all kind of fuzzy but I know there was a crop, some begging and face fucking involved. These are a few of my favorite things!
Omg What a difference I have seen in him since he introduced the contract. A lot has changed and I can only hope its here to stay.
So much has happened that I feel a little overwhelmed and need to get it out so I can begin to process.
Clyde has taken control in every way. He now has control of every orgasm, meaning no petting the kitty whenever I want. I am to ask permission to come. (which let's face it, its pretty fuckin hott) His goal with that is to train me to come on command. And tonight it happened for the first time ever. I'm being realistic in knowing it won't always happen that easy, but tonight? Tonight I came like a freight train because he told me to and I was rewarded with a"good girl" and a very big smile. It was a great feeling knowing he was so pleased with me.
There are some new rules that are going to take some getting used to. It was his desire for me to sleep in the nude every night just in case he wakes and feels the need to use what's his. (For all you mommies out there wondering.... I keep a robe next to my bed that can be thrown on at a moments notice should the kiddos need me.) Also, anytime the girls are not home, you guessed it, naked!
Aside from the sexual part, he has stepped up in a major way. He has taken my health into his hands and I am to visit the Dr. for a checkup. I haven't been in probably 10 years (my choice, if it ain't broke, don't fix it) and that was one of the first "orders" I was given. I have a tendency to put everything I have into him and my girls that I often neglect myself. He has decided this weekend he is giving me a makeover. I will have my hair done the way he likes and he will take me shopping to pick out some new clothes that he would like me to wear. The words "sex doll" were thrown around and I'm excited to see where that goes. (Wish me luck because I think I'm going to need it.)
He has had some very interesting tasks that he will text me with throughout the day to keep me in the right mindset and remind me of my role. With the contract in place, we both have a very clear list of our expectations of each other which has taken all the guesswork out. There is a lot more that we have discussed that just hasn't come to fruition yet so I'll leave that for another time.
It may not work for everyone and it may not even work for us. We have decided to give it a 3 month trial period and then reevaluate. But for now, I truly couldn't be happier with the direction things are going. Maybe being a slave to my Master won't be so bad!