I haven't been around blogland much lately. I guess you could say I lost my inspiration. Things had gotten pretty vanilla between clyde and I and thats not very fun to write or read about. I felt like things on the D/s front had reached a plateau. We weren't having any playtime or very much sex. We weren't trying anything new, we were at a stand still. D/s was only in the bedroom sometimes and I wanted more.
I decided to talk to him about it. I told him that I, as the sub, could not continue to lead him. He can't keep taking his cues from me. That's not the way this is supposed to work. If he is not interested in learning more that what I have told him about how to be a Dom than we might as well forget this thing we do. I don't want him to just do this for me. If this is not what he truly wanted in our relationship then its pointless. We are not always the best at communicating but I did get my point across and it left some tension between us.
We really didn't talk much more about it and just went on with our daily vanilla life. I wasn't sure where that little discussion was going to take us but I was sure something was about to change one way or another. Over the next couple days I saw him on the internet reading and typing a lot. I was curious and when I asked he just said that I would find out soon enough.
Well yesterday I found out what he was up to. He presented me with a contract. He wants to own me, mind, body and soul. He wants to be my Master. He wants me to be his slave.
I was completely taken by surprise. I mean, here I was thinking submission was over for us and he wants to take it further than I ever imagined he would. Whatever he read over the weekend must have made something click inside him. As we discussed the contract and him owning me, he had a raging hard on the whole time. I guess you could say I got the "more" I was asking for.
I have mixed feelings about this. One part of me loves what he has presented to me and you could imagine inside I was like an excited puppy, jumping up and down. The other part of me....... Doesn't know what to think of the title "Slave".
So that's where we are now. He has assured me he is serious about being my Master and all that entails. I'm not sure where this will take us. We are still working on our contract as there are things I want to add and change. If I'm brave enough, I will post it here when its final and signed by both of us.
Any advice for either of us would be appreciated as this is a big step for both of us. You can leave it in the comments or email at firstname.lastname@example.org