By now you know that Clyde and I do not practice DD. We use spanking for erotic purposes only. I have mentioned before that I would like to add the discipline dynamic to our relationship. Clyde didn't really take to it but never said no to it either. I had been trying to push him in that direction.
Well the other day that came to a head. I was feeling a little upset that he hadn't taken any steps toward DD. We talked about it and he flat out told me that this was not something he could do. He would not punish me. He would not set rules for me. He didn't feel I deserved that and it just wasn't in him.
Of course I felt let down. I withdrew. We didn't talk to each other for several hours. I had to let that sink in. It was uncomfortable to say the least.
At the end of the day when we were alone I asked if we could talk about it. And boy am I glad we did. He made me realize that there is nothing he would want to change about me. He loves me for me. He doesn't want to discipline me for any behavior. He just wants me to be me.
I love him for that.
We will continue our journey with ttwd and do it our way.